All good things come to an end/when an angel kills himself is it considered a sin/I don’t know/All I know is that the show must go on/Trace the letter out of blood/complete the words of the song/ I had to write this in blood, because the ink wasn't able to script the feelings/took a page out of the pain that I felt, dealt with the dealings/every card I ever owned was a product of my mistakes/now when I see the dealer shuffle/my muscles begin to ache/see i've been waiting for so long for the song that will set me free/I wrote a million prose/in hopes God would give me the light to see/I wore my heart upon my sleeve/it would seem that could be the miscue/has to be/because they don’t mean they love you unless the miss you/misuse/then throw away/toss aside/then try to repeat/you’re only needed when you’re useful/it’s usually double speak/ and it's easy to mistake what is fate for what is an option/when you’re stuck in constant caution/the purpose can be forgotten/so you stumble on the road/though believe you can see the way/the reality of it is/that you’re simply just lead astray/some say I’m pessimistic/and never see silver lines/I’ll be honest all I see is a shiny thing that divides/ All good things come to an end/when an angel kills himself is it considered a sin/I don’t know/All I know is that the show must go on/Trace the letter out of blood/complete the words of the song/ I had to write this in blood/but the pages got soft and fell apart/so what I started on a ledger/I finished on chunks of heart/blemage the finest art/make it tawdry/then watch it sell/seems as far as the artist gets is as far as the artist’s cell/for starters/an artist’s hell is encased in their mirror image/so the basics of it is/growth is sales/that marks your limit/infinite sparks diminish/the minute you sell your soul/you wanted to be a king/Midas Touch/what you weren’t told/the moral of that is simple/stay true to yourself/don’t lust/for the things too good to be true/cause that’s usually what you can trust/it’s a must to reach for the stars/but it’s best to remember this/some stars have been dead for centuries/eventually we get the hint/so when you’re reaching for the sparkling, shimmering, shiny light/remember it fades away the closer it gets in sight/some say I’m just pessimistic/and never see silver lines/the funny part of it is/that’s the reason I’m still alive/ All good things come to an end/when an angel kills himself is it considered a sin/I don’t know/All I know is that the show must go on/Trace the letter out of blood/complete the words of the song/

Chorus- I been trying to run/I been trying to hide/I been trying to get away from all this pain/I’ve been trying to run/I’ve been trying to hide/I’ve been trying to get away from all this stress/I been trying to run/I been trying to hide/I been trying to get away from all this hurt/I been trying to run/I been trying to hide/I been trying to get away/I’m tired/can’t get away/ (I’ve been trying)/since the moment I woke up/take back time/I never should have made that call/now looking back I’m-/steady staring at a picture on my phone/just a memory of misery/I must be left alone/but they won’t/cause now all they see/is OD/Mr. “no one understands/so I guess I got to leave”/simply/no one heard the cries/I was screaming in my sleep/I was dreaming of the demons/no one ever would believe/I tried to slit my wrist (shit)/Tried to suffocate/but the bottles never broke/so then I drowned myself in hate/other’s said they could relate/but I am not them/they’re not me/and even though we’re both suffering/it’s not the same thing/not saying whose worse/simply saying mine is mine/but the OD didn’t work/so now I’m back to simply trying/I got to find a way to escape/I hate this place/it’s seems that every song I write is about that day/can you believe I’ve (I’ve been) trying since the moment I woke up this last time/can’t believe we’re fighting again/now looking back I’m-/tired of the arguing/we do it everyday/then it’s back to making love/every night/like nothing’s changed/but the damage still remains/we just bury it away/till another round begins/and then it’s back to toxic hate/we both want to escape/feel trapped in our own way/both see that we’re reaching out/ but held back/cause we’re so afraid/of what? /full life’s potential/never feeling alone/never having to acting like we’re happy then cry at home/never having to look at ourselves and make excuses/never feeling it/don’t admit it/ we’re not useless/you say that I don’t love you/and I say you just don’t know/but the truth is/when we’re separate/seems we both want to explode/I’m tired of the arguing/I’m tired of the lies/I’m tired of the sleepless nights/some times I don’t know why/

One day/It’s all gonna change/I promised myself/that it won’t stay this way/ one day/I'll close my eyes and see peace/and they'll be no more looking backwards/ and all the pain will have ceased/and there will be no more talk of drowning parts of me in my speech/man, I can see it/so clear/like it’s just out of reach/it’s okay though/I’ll make/I promised myself/and as an artist fight regardless of the cards I was dealt/I’ve never felt I’m alive/at times it seems so dense/can hear the devil calling for me/can’t escape past tense/reminense about the memories/imagery drains away/write a story of forgiveness/so vivid/yet stays grey/I’m locking up those moments/I’m lonely/but act okay/behind the grin/there hids a sin/sadly I just can’t change/turn the page/start a new chapter/then set flames to the book/I’ve heard/what’s fit for kings/at first must go through the cook/so you can take what you’re given/Treat living life like a chook/I’d rather burn all my bridges than see the world as a rook/(check) one day/the passion will fade/I’ll find a new direction and start walking away/haha/yeah right/this is all that I know/I try for self control/but music lives in my soul/so no/I’m never leaving/at least not my words/the screams keeps getting louder/but no voices are heard/is it me/it probably is/I think I’m going insane/I try to act okay/some days it’s hard to maintin/I can’t keep up appearences/these fraudulent acts/stay focused on the opus/but the retards distract/no tact/not what I meant/I mean to slow down is hard/you try to fix what’s broken/when the pieces are charred/too scarred/to be remembered/dismembered from what was past/you try to be patience for it/a moments notice/just snap/is it just me/It could be/It’s happened before/I slit my wrist on broken glass/then heard the knock on the door/ Today/I’m done with talking/my options are few/but confident/this constant hit of nausa is through/I’m sick of feeling/every morning/that this place’s not my home/it’s where my heart is damn it/can’t you please just leave me alone/there’s no one there though/it’s just me/it seems I scream in a cell/the padded walls make me feel safe/in case I damage myself/what’s left to do/screw with my psyche/well that might past due/matter fact/look back/and see the screws are actually too loose/it all makes sense/no I’m not crazy/and I’m not all alone/I’m just a simple man with failures too complex to condone/so while I sit and try to figure this rigorous path I choose/the problem is often caught up in negative points of view/to assume that you see the picture/in full/is much to assume/I heard knocking/while bridges burned/smelt fumes/but stayed locked in my room/one day I’ll escape/but today’s not the day/I close my eyes and see pieces/of me I wish I could change/but

(Chorus) I hate it when the rain falls down (Echo - down) (4x) You’re sick of hearing it?/I’m sick of saying it/Nevermind the fact/I’m tired of replaying it/it never changes/the rage remains/and I still wake up stuck in such an awkward phase/what do I do now?/I haven’t figured out/I tried to fix the puzzle/but this muzzle won’t allow/I tried to clean the rubble/but that bubble burst and drown/I tried to sit and chuckle/but this tunnel muddles sound/I tried to kick it subtle/it didn’t work/I tried to scream aloud/but that only made it worse/I never meant to hurt/but that seems to be my thing/the sound is so sweet/when the birds in cages sing/(man)I feel like I’m leper/it’s only in my head/there’s people all around me/yet I still feel like I’m dead/got everybody listening/but they still can’t hear me speak/I hate it when it rains/seems like everything’s so bleak/ -Chorus- You’re sick of seeing it/I’m sick of being it/If I could end this/then I would/please trust/believe me this/not what I wanted/I wanted peace/but I see now/all I can give is piece/parts of myself that I can’t get back/words written on walls/before the markers snapped/seem everything after’s scribbled in blood/can the damage of man just be cleansed with a flood/if it’s true/then please cleanse me/erase the shame/I tried to drown all the pain/guess it’s not the same/guess it’s not the rain/when these tears fall down/I still hate to be alone when I hear that sound/I can’t stand it/Damn it/get out my head/there’s people all around/yet I still feel dead/got everyone listening/but I just can’t speak/when the rain falls down/I just feel so weak/ -Chorus- (2nd Chorus) I hate it when the rain falls/(I) hate it when the rain falls/(I)Hate it when the rains falls (I) Hate it when the rain falls down (2x overlapping in a “row”)

What they say only makes sense if you want it to/Follow blindly while idols are staring back at you/What they say is all lies and make believe/if you listen carefully between lines/to what they mean/ We take pain/and refine it to make it diamonds/the island that we’ve created/sits silent on the horizon/the climate provides confinement/the siren’s song calls the tyrant/excited/we lose our focus/divided/their grip is tightened/I’m frightened/not for myself/but the culture that helped me breathe/when I try to recess the demons/ “Look at me” is what they scream/They bleed/just for attention/suspension of self belief/convinced that they’ll gain ascension/to fame when their likes have peaks/the squeak/of a noisy gear’s not enough to make it work/we got to hit em where it hurts/in the pocket book/show our worth/it’s crazy if poke the fox you’ll hear the devil inside/I tried to be free from hatred/some pain will never die/what resides inside the masses?/they laugh as though a joke/the promises that they made us/are nothing but lights and smoke/an act/the fact they play us so easily/makes me sad/saying nothing/we hear dreams/perfect picture/can’t understand/cause -Chorus- They’re Excited/the violence you hear is man/confusing his only purpose/play into the serpent’s plan/look under the surface and/find pearls hidden in stones/find guidance with in the old/hidden message resides in souls/it’s easy to die for gold/but it’s harder to live for light/so we squander away our brilliance/then say that we can’t ignite/complain it’s too hard to fight/so we’ve lost before we’ve begun/run for cover from the moon/hid in shade/far away from sun/unsung/lies dying soldiers/left screaming from war for peace/it’s taken and twisted up/for a senator’s latest speech/inventing a way to speak/so the words don’t mean a thing/relax inside the plantation/and listen to us just sing/the viciousness of the sting’s/we don’t mention it/so it sits/then we wonder why politicians with millions don’t give a shit/they’re hoping that we stay split/and lose focus of our defense/I wonder if we deserve it/as other towers get hit/ cause -Chorus- They fake news/and use views as prophecy/commonly misconstrue/any truth to gain a profit/see/the masses never ask/just accept it as status quo/while the gossip becomes prophet/Jim crow is apropos/so/every word that we twist to dumb it down/makes us that much less the victim/a system to make us clowns/what now/we raise our fist/because actions louder than words/we tell em/now longer listening/this is when we get heard/We’re tired of all the lies/we’re tired of make believe/retire the false beliefs/we’re limited to achieve/our women are not to be/made ashamed cause they ain’t ratchet/posing upon a mattress in fashion/snap chatting glances/enough/see what they say only makes sense if you let it/repeat it a million times/till the image has been imbedded/but it’s not true/so listen the message I have is that/they can say anything that they want/don’t make it fact/cause

Imagine all this written in blood/Can’t figure out how to get back home/(Back Home) I close my eyes and see visions of death/open minds visualize/there’s no shortness of breathe/I sympathize I/had finger cut off while I was reaching for the stars/these bars/just a sample of what’s leaking through my scars/as far as I can see/seems the demons have won/I slit my throat/spoke through blood/what has the image become/prophecy/what’d we make it/sacred scenes at a glance/flash through eyelids like a movies/Jesus died/and they laughed/Imagine all this scripted in whiskey and broken glass/a memory written imagery/enemy is my past/vividly speak of heaven/while we’ll sleeping in hell/so intimate in descention/Satan questions himself/you worry about the darkness/while the heart eats away/at every single piece of purpose/that the serpent portrays/while the surface decays/we simply stare at his gaze/with the smile of a child/while engulfed in the flames/now It happens nightly/invitingly set the tone/a mass production of murder/delightfully hidden prose/despite what may have been told/The sins on his back are stitched/the ink’s just a disguise/so the demons know where to itch/Imagine all this written in blood/on strips of flesh/a devilish thought consumes/till wrenches sanity’s breathe/inventing new fars to fetch/while he streches his mind’s elastic/you bastards had best believe/he can see past/what’s spoken backwards/those statements made now retracted/distracted glances are lost/though he never would sell his soul/you can bet he’s appraised the cost/the rabbit hole’s all he saw when he tunnel visioned his sight/confused the depth of his pain/with fact that he blocked his light/so he slept it off in the corner/and woke up with evil thoughts/his picture becomes complete/when his demons connect the dots/the darkness this artist sees is a vision of what’s to come/but he promised he wouldn’t speak until everything had been done/so

I put my finger to my lips/(shh)/It’s so loud/I can’t figure out how to talk to myself/I scream into darkness/it seems like I’m heartless/the farthest from truth/see the bruises and marks/it’s the demon inside/what I mean is the lie/I’ve been fighting for years/see my dreams come alive/but they crash when awake/psycho path that I take/I go back to my maker/a factual mistake/or the true road to choose/scream alone in a room/rip the pads off the walls/hear the call of the moon/the impeding of doom/or a new chapter made/when the day starts to fade/pray awake to a blade/but I didn’t/now I’m fearing/the worst still to come/hearing voices in shadows/while holding a gun/but the bullets don’t fire/I’m tired of waiting/The man in the mirror is dead/what have you made me (ahh) Every time I think about you now/I go crazy/what the fuck have you done/look what you made me/ look what you made me (repeat chorus just 2x) I put my finger to my lips/(shh)/Can you see me/alone in the room/but I can’t stop the screaming/I can’t stop the bleeding/I won’t is better phrasing/the sting of the blade/stills the rage/so amazing/the wording is scathing/I’m bathing in blood/metaphorically speaking/I’m actually done/with the writing/the hiding/the lying in wait/rather gouge out my eyes/then arrive at my fate/I surmise that the hate/is a figment/a taste/of the road that I traveled/unraveled disgrace/or is it/another piece to the puzzle designed/I can’t figure out how to muzzle the mind/I’ve tried to be subtle/I struggle with caving/no longer fear death/fear I’m anticipating/semantics/I’m craving an end to the lies/the man in the mirror is dead/no surprise/(Ahhh) Every time I think about you now/I go crazy/what the fuck have you done/look what you made me/look what you made me (repeat chorus just 2x) I put my finger to my lips/(shh) Am i crazy/I may be/I scream at the walls/as the days seem/to slowly drift by/I am only one guy/but I feel like I’m fighting all loneliness/I/can not possibly handle the world on my spine/it is crushing/some things never change/though you try/A natural progression/decrepit obsession/ceased breathing would see me be free/hidden blessing/I curse at the lesson/won’t lessen the bruising/what’s weird now/I find that pain became soothing/I’m losing my purpose/the serpent is wise/he waits for the time/that you hurt/then he climbs/though certain he lies/believe what he sells/the screams in my dreams stitch the seams of my hell/deceiving/this cell is the past/never changing/The man in the mirror is dead/I’m what made me(ah) Every time I think about you now/I go crazy/what the fuck have you done/look what you made me/look what you made me (repeat chorus just 2x)

I don’t even know why I’m speaking to you/I should be dead/took an insane amount of pills/had the pistol held to my head/I swallowed bullets/anti-dess-ies/sleepers/shoulda kill Kong/yet I’m standing in this booth/to relive it/for just a song/I say just/casue what ‘s it matter/everything stayed the same/I woke up/went to the hospital/think about razor blades/STILL/it’s on my mental/music just mimics pain/the strings provide the symphony/sympathy comes in waves/simply keep self in chains/cause I simply just hate you James/I wish you dead/erase the memories/intresting all this rage/(Scream)/I stand here screaming/I’m seething/yelling at air/cause even though I know alone/I still dream that there’s someone there/my death/already happened/a shell of the man I’d been/I’ve been trying to bring him back/but there’s nothing under the skin/the pieces/they were picked up/but then crumbled/to bits of ash/they were scatterd/by winds of change/what remains/is an echoed laugh/so Watch/A child born with a devilish grin/resides inside a pastor that speak to you about sin/defy that evil bastard and simply rip open skin/you’ll find that every master is somebody’s slave within I grasp/at bits of sanity/rapidly losing grip/I keep trying to drink the kool-aide/ rejuvenate pencil’s script/but the lips/they simply quiver/a shiver runs done the spine/as I drown in a sea of tears/see I know that the fault is mine/I remember/I sat in darkness and whispered all to myself/that I’d much rather be lonely than happy with someone else/and I meant it/it seems demented/cemented my frame of mind/so solid my misconceptions/they lessened my eyes till blind/hoping my faith would save me/a lesson I learned while sleep/is that no one is really listening/even in desperate speech/so gather up all your trinkets/and burn em/they have no use/cause you might as well pray to ashes/than any master you choose/the aftermath is the same/whether saved or you die alone/I’ll be honest/though you’ll hear answers/the voices are all your own/I suppose this is where I end it with words to strengthen the rope/but you might as well hang yourself/you’re not living/if you don’t hope/so Begin/but never finish/diminish your self control/reside in bits of apathy/actually bash ya skull/naturally count the minutes/while critics blemish your soul/replenish your spit/acidic/no gimmicks to mimic/I’m told/suppose/you met the Devil/and didn’t notice a difference/the instance he spoke he sold you/on all that could peak of interest/to distance yourself from pain is so easy with his assistance/as simple as signing names on a line/-/resistance to say good riddance to pain/what are you mad/basically given keys to the life that you never had/wide eyed it takes a while/to really see when he grins/but the evil that smiles back is a child/buried in sin/restyled to seem so comforting/nothing to cause concern/some things can seem so trusting/the suffering never learn/adjourn from speaking scripture/a picture painted in verse/a demon with child’s eyes/only half of this person’s curse/so

You can’t always do what they want/and everything ain’t how it seems/ You can’t always do what they want/they tell you lies to make you give up your dreams/ You can’t always do what they /and everything ain’t how it seems/You can’t always do what they want/they tell you lies so watch what you believe/ They want me to write/but I’ve got nothing to say/I’ve built a wall of words around me/might as well of been clay/they say they want me to fight/but all they want is a silent version of history/mystery how they miss him/intensive surgery/misery/QUOTE/it just wants company/somebody find the light/left wondering why that somebody’s grumbling bout a fight/lest crumbling walls befall/become graves/nay/more sarcophagus/obvious that his talent is lost/inside sub consciousness/END QUOTE/ I often find kin folk/don’t get me/misspoke/my English is bad/this bloke’s a gypsy/simply he wander phrases/the gazes he gives is ill/to paragraphs with a pencil/or pens full of sleeping pills/Pens full of sleeping pills??/the imagery of that still/paints pictures of paranoia/a prophecy self full-filled/but I promise I’m making progress/though honestly growth is slow/this artist you see is starving/the animal in him just foams/he knows… You can’t always do what they want/and everything ain’t how it seems/ You can’t always do what they want/they tell you lies to make you give up your dreams/ You can’t always do what they /and everything ain’t how it seems/You can’t always do what they want/they tell you lies so watch what you believe/ They say they want me to speak/but when I do yell absurd/I guess they only want my voice if they can supply the words/they say I made a mistake/I tell em step out they glass homes/you wanna toss stones/suggest you look at the last thrown(throne)/get it/my pencil paints a perfect portrait of soul/when it’s emptied over some trumpets/or slathered upon trombones/the symphony makes a moment/I’ve honed it to make it clear/then it’s muffled by my self loathing/I’m hoping will disappear/if you listen to what i whisper/you’ll notice that when i scream/slaughter half a million letters just to let off some steam/I’ll fight through every single nightmare/for a glimpse of my dream/if it means dying over music/for the message to gleam/I’ll do it/I’ve made my peace/and I promise this not a threat/but this artist will live forever/from poems beneath his chest/he’ll give you all that he has/till he swears that there’s nothing left/then when play this while all alone/you can hear that with every breathe/ - Chorus -

(Relax)/that’s what he said as he told her to strip down/because everybody does it/to make it in this town/see cuz acting don’t pay/if afraid to show skin/you should take another swig/let the “magic” just sink in/ain’t it tragic/she’s so thin/but they act like she’s so fat/cause we celebrate fake/superficial/then add that/to the television dreams/and the make believe life/being humble is a sin/must exaggerate/screen lies/we pretend we don’t see/then pretend we don’t hear/we befriend to move forward/once behind/we don’t care/it’s the nature of the beast/we feast on tabloids/we cease to be human/at least we androids/at best a false society/finally brass tacks/silently improprieties violently lash back/flashback/to our sobriety/privacy punch drunk/variety’s still a thing/but the thing is that we’ve sunk/they scream Relax/It’s all a dream/know it seems like one big lie/but the way this place works/just pretend you have no mind/Relax/It’s a dream/and all yours if like/what it cost doesn’t matter/you’re living the high life/2x (Relax)It’s just a verse/What’s the worse it could be/it doesn’t matter it’s not you/it’s what sells/it’s simply/the nature of the genre/mantra/Cash Hoes/sell a million records/let go/no control/the soul of the music/lose it/write this/it’s what every one is doing/remake of the last hit/what if/you went against it/rage on the machine/light a fire underneath it/say things so obscene/like read a couple books/pay attention to real news/don’t believe the hype/make a difference/what you chose/it doesn’t have to be a sea of the same lie/we create a couple waves every time/we don’t stand by/and let them tell us/jewelry and bitches is what’s good/you can’t be real or black/if you ain’t come from the hood/we should/light a match and set fire to the establishment/instead you seem content to keep spitting that weak average shit/

a picture’s worth a thousand words/a scriptures molds my penance/while I’m screaming for forgiveness/seem I rarely stop to listen/everybody’s saying stop/but I can’t I’m on a mission/I keep looking for the exit/but the hurt keeps blocking vision/I feel I gotta focus/I feel I gotta fight/even though I’m feeling hopeless/know the lord has got a sight/set for me to find my way/I pray/the finish lines in view/I keep running/pulling muscles/tighten flesh/ripping sinew/what to do/what to stop/feel my head is gonna pop/feel the pressure building stronger/how much longer till the top/Climb a mountain/never doubting/try to look for brighter days/even though I know it’s worth it/feel that death’s the only way/feeling restless while I pray/maybe that’s why I’m not heard/I’m so anxious for the finish that i haven’t heard a word/feel I cannot be deterred/but dream’s no easy path/feel I’m fighting for my life/while He just has himself a laugh/I ask If I should die tonight (would I slit my wrist)/If I should die tonight (would I load the gun)/If I should die tonight/ (would I take the pills)/If I should die tonight (would it all be done) Know that’s crazy I talking/walking every single step/holding faith like a vice/with every breath/I won’t accept/that I’ve struggled up the mountain/that I’ve fought against the pain/you can tell me that I’m crazy/but this made what I am/I’m a solider/I’m a fighter/I am never backing down/you can hit me with ya best/but I will rise and take my crown/I will never say I’m finished/even with my dying breathe/know my pain just a sentence in the book about the Best/you can look back/laugh in jest/but I promise with this text/I will rise against adversity/the phoenix in my chest/burns eternal/this inferno/I’m a firearm of prose/I’m supposed to eat the apple/but I know the serpent’s lows/so for now I’ll take these blows/I know it’s only for my growth/and no matter how I’m hurting/nothing strips me of this hope/nothing trips me up/won’t stumble/clear the rubble in my life/hear the voices screaming end it/feel the pressure of the knife/so -Chorus- I’m so anxious for this strife/to just be finished/let me be/here’s a picture and a scripture/must be blind before you see/must we hide before we seek/tongues are tied before we speak/there’s a lesson in the message/we must find amongst defeat/while you hear me speak of cleansing/I’m still washing off the dirt/While you hear me say rebirth/I’m still finding why I’m hurt/I’m still searching for an answer/I’m still finding what to ask/no more waiting for the clearance/I am off the beaten path/and If I tell myself to stop it/the feelings begin to fade/but when it’s silent in the night/my demons come out to play/the easiest route to pave/is deceiving myself/I’m safe/believing a lapse in faith/means conceding I’m apt to stay/exceeding my max today/knees bleed/but I have to pray/know breathing helps me fung shui/no breathings my last escape/I’m seething/you laugh in shade/but I’m seizing the razor’s blade/I’m squeezing to find a vein/can’t believe it/I tried to change/but -Chorus

Was supposed to be my Adrian/anger when I remember/all the times that I forgot what I had/then came September/my walls came down/shattered/I felt dismembered/limb from limb torn/mourn till I’m just slivers/shiver when I’m awake/alone I sit at home/in the darkness of a room that we shared/I stalk her growth/dying/first inside/felt my soul start to implode/then I started writing notes/in the hopes I could unload/but I can’t/the pen’s a reminder of what was lost/so I close my eyes to sleep/but in dreams still feel the frost/it’s cold/when you hold on to memory of the past/all alone/retrace steps till you find when you lost track/I’m told/you’ll never move if you constantly look back/though I scold myself/I love her and nothing can change that/so I write another poem in hopes that she understands/when she finds this/underneath all that monster/there stood a man/she said (Imagine me and you) Hand in hand/a revisionist past/look back/can’t understand/(Imagine me and you) /never know the reason why/close eyes/don’t lie/can’t turn back time/(Imagine me and you)/seems nothing stays the same/no matter how you try/everything has got to change/ When she met me I was perfect/surface can be deceiving/underneath it I was seething/the demons were always beating/eating at my flesh from inside/but I could hid/never wanted her to know what was breeding/and so I lied/but I tried to be there for her/honest/or maybe not/honestly I was rotten/too often I just forgot/took for granted what was given/forgiven every time/till she started losing faith/and I started losing my mind/when she finally realized I was broken/it came to late/she had all these other things/ and she needed to clear the slate/but me/couldn’t relate/so I suffered and drug her down/instead of me only dying/was causing us both to drown/never wanted her to hurt/never wanted to see her leave/but she had to make choice/and her options were only these/so she let go and she swam/and I sank/but don’t regret/there’s a thousand ways to lose/but just one of those ways is death/

She keeps trying to forget the past/She keeps trying to forget the past/She keeps trying to forget the past/keeps looking back/so she hits the glass/

Trust me/but it’s so hard to trust/when you feel everything that you touch turns to dust/Trust me/but you can’t/so you lose/sight of everything/looking back/who’s the fool/Trust me/but it’s so hard to trust/when you feel everything that you touch turns to dust/Trust me/but you can’t/so they go/always alone/man, why can’t you just (trust) Trust is an emotion I’m hoping I haven’t wasted/I’m patient but I’m not stupid/confuse it and bet you lose it/improve it and watch it grow to a sight that you’ve never seen/a vision of pure perfection/invest then just watch it gleam/it’s best to just not believe/the demons will say in ears/the shadows we hid within/seem shallow amidst our fears/we babble in fits of tears/so we never see what we need/too busy making the cuts to see when we start to bleed/deceived/when we see failures of others that’s in our shoes/not thinking there’s different foot steps for every road that we choose/so simple to take the news and make it be what we want/that we often forget the fact/opinions more often taught/we tend to focus on sought/don’t see what we’re supposed to be/miss out on basic truth/while searching in make believe/unearthing what’s underneath the surface will light the path/first step to dirty hands/realizing you need to scratch/but Trust me/but it’s so hard to trust/when you feel everything that you touch turns to dust/Trust me/but you can’t/so you lose/sight of everything/looking back/who’s the fool/Trust me/but it’s so hard to trust/when you feel everything that you touch turns to dust/Trust me/but you can’t/so they go/always alone/man, why can’t you just (trust) Trust is an emotion I’m hoping I haven’t lost/I put up a false bravado/got nothing/still paid a cost/I’m told when you shake the frost/the chill will leave when it’s time/the cold in me still remains/seem insane when I speak my mind/it’s troubling when you find that the line that you crossed was yours/ you stumble/ retrace the path/every step just infects you more/soothe sores just to find that the scars will never heal/because the salt from your eyes/never cleanses the way you feel/not trying to be too deep or depress you with words of woe/I guess in so many words/simply saying reap what you sow/it’s easy to say you know when the moment has come and passed/we all know that vision back isn’t half of the finished laugh/we attack the ones held closest/focus on self defeat/we pity who’s in the mirror/spread blame far from our feet/when speak/it’s selfish mumbles/ grumble between each breathe/it’s easy to lie in rubble/then crumble/each time you step/but Trust me/but it’s so hard to trust/when you feel everything that you touch turns to dust/Trust me/but you can’t/so you lose/sight of everything/looking back/who’s the fool/Trust me/but it’s so hard to trust/when you feel everything that you touch turns to dust/Trust me/but you can’t/so they go/always alone/man, why can’t you just (trust)

Take a trip down memory lane/where the first verse was spit/to the start of the game/where the first B-Boy flipped and a spray can sprayed/what would soon be the start of what paved our way/(scratch)/out of the grime and the grit of the streets/uplifting the kids by the soul through their speaks/boom box on shoulder/our version of the holsters worn in the wild wild west/(Vocal)/the fact of the matter/is this/I owe thanks to Big Kane, Rakim, and Furious/the list could go on/they spawned a whole culture/carrying the weight on your back/overexposure/lead to LB kicking over the building/and a group of hype Southerns raising the ceiling/but you never lost your pride/stood strong through the storm/I gotta Thank New York/state where hip-hop was born/ Take a trip down memory/where the pistols always popped/and they insane in the brain/where they twisting up their fingers/in a sinister way/and every color has place inside the heart of a gang/while they were kicking down the buildings/they inspired a change/and introduced us to the funk/and told us all what to say/to any cop or Politian/that they thought would never listen/made it everybody’s mission/live and die in LA/I owe thanks to Machiavelli/NWA/a DJ named Quik/and a slew from the bay/ a W is seen in many eyes of the street/they re-envisioned certain steps for the boys of the beat/whether crip walking or Krumping/they’re always inventing something/no place in these states for fronting/West coast/we just keep it bumping/ like I thanked NY/I gotta thank CA/the place where Hip-Hop came/when it needed a change/ No more trips/let’s remain in the now/I promised once/I’d never fake it/and I’m keeping my vow/every second on a record/I’m expecting me to wreck it/though at times my life is hectic/use this music as a weapon/to eliminate the fake/and this fouling stench/know they claim that this a game/but I’m not seeing a bench/seems/ The only one who could ever reach me/was the music/and I ain’t trying to lose it/Now not trying to be a preacher/ain’t no soapbox steps/but we started this as voiceless/now just hear bout checks/turn on the radio/and every single song is the same/not saying hip-hop is dead/just think it’s time for a change/seems/The only one who could ever reach me/’s no longer speaking/repeating/mumbling words/ain’t worried who’s in control/I’m worried about the herds/ ain’t worried who’s in control/I’m worried about the terms/

I remember so clearly/I held the gun in my hand/I sat alone in the darkness/just spoke to one of my plan/told my God I was sorry/then tried to finish the note/I pressed the barrel against me/I felt the knot in my throat/I suppose/I was frightened/probably heightened the pain/only physical really/feelings I had seemed to fade/the plan I actually made/was just to wait for the day/I spoke to God and he promised/at least I thought/did it change/it doesn’t matter/not really/not while I sit in the dark/ a Ruger revolver placed this close to my heart/open casket I whispered then I just laughed/nevermind/don’t want to hear/but let’s be clear/I tried my best to survive/make no mistake/I pulled the trigger/but the gun must’ve jammed/an empty shell casing/amazing/held the gun in my hand/for a moment/just a moment/felt so close to the God’s/and then I blinked/and just like that/I knew the moment was gone There’s not a moment/I don’t question myself/every time I touch the scars and the welts/try to find why these feelings are felt/Every time I survive/stuck with reasonable doubt/ I remember so clearly/I held the pills in my hand/I sat alone in the car/said I will finish this plan/told my God I was sorry/when I turned off the phone/took a swig of tequila/await the lights to come home/tried to slip into slumber/all I got was unrest/prayed for peace/don’t resent me/there’s still a piece of me left/buried demons in pills/and tried to swallow the signs/while I slept in the car/I tried to empty my mind/but my brain wouldn’t let me/forced to relive it all/saw the screaming and fighting/I still remember the call/never gave you a reason/never gave you a why/just know that part of me hated/and it wanted to die/when I woke up it hit me/that the moment had passed/I sat alone in a parking lot/and had me a laugh/tried to drive to the doctors/but her voice told me no/I can still feel it echo/in every part of my soul -Chorus- I remember so clearly/every time that I tried/every moment that passes/seems like a part of me dies/I’ve been screaming for years/it’s been decades and still/I keep fighting the urges/the thoughts that ask me to kill/I’ve put the blade to my wrist, I’ve put the gun to my skull/I’ve pulled the trigger/but can’t figure/why I’m so comfortable/I self destruct every few months/rebuild the parts that are left/address the few that still care/detest the phrase “I’m depressed”/I’m simply me/and what that means/is I might never find peace/but at the least/with each defeat/increase the heart in my speech/I lost my soul cause of suicide/now reside in old sin/await the day/count down the seconds/the next moment begins/when it happens again/and I say when/know not if/I hope the last one to come/the moment’s my precibus/sink into the abyss/precious slumber at last/fade away into memory/as the moment goes past/ -Chorus-